dissapointment

true, i DID get my new printer and i DID read the manual like, overnight, but that's just that. it just won't install on my computer at home. meaning, it has to be installed here at the clinic. i mean, i don't really care if it gets installed here but it's kinda unfair cause the PC here already HAS internet... and i don't.... nown it's the printer



T______T



it's not the greatest dissapointment in my life, but it did give me another reason to be sad.



on the other side, i finally finished the book my dad gave me. seriuosly, he could've just given it to my mom instead of me, cause she'd (probably) appreciate it more. the president's daughter (that's the title) is NOT chicklit, as some people would propose it is by it's title. it's an action novel of some sorts that talk about people who's mission is to kick other people's butt to save the president's 'secret' daughter.



i just wish david went ahead and killed judas, not the other way around.



and so, since that book's done, i'm going to start abarat (days of magic : nights of war) today! yeaaaaahhh! i'm half through lost souls though... might finish that first.

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for nowm the only HW i'm done with is math. i'm still not up to do journ... and GIFT is another matter too. i might not do the review again, but i HAVE to make the lit. journ and personal essay. that's where my grades will depend on.

speaking of grades, i think i'm being lazy again. O_____O the horror... 4th periodic exams are coming up too... might as well start studying my butt off this moment...

no wait. HW first :D

-shing

not an illusion

today was piano day...

i can easily say that Hanon is my favourite book in piano and Thompson my least. i mean, really~ i guess speed's my game in playing.

my dad and brother went along with me today. it's not half bad to see your brother peeking at the window, tapping and saying hi every once in a while. hehehe. i guess having a little brother does that to you. you just get used at being tapped on and called on every now and then.

we went to mega and yeah! ate at sbarros for lunch. pizza there is GREAT. and the cake too, though i think the sponge cake used in it didn't have enough flavor.

i finally got to admit to my dad. yes, people, after a week. after a week of pure brain torture and nagging conscience dillemas, i have finally come clean, down to even last year's part. what can i say? i'm proud.

actually, i'm glad. my dad kinda understands, cause he KNOWS he's been through it, even if his is in a different perspective. he's just against rushing things. so now, i can still talk to him, but on a friendly basis (insert a couple of random words here and there and i think we'll be fine).

the only thing left now to do is wait. it's not easy to wait, true, but 'if it's destined' then it'll come. 6 years will just pass XD

now all that's left is convincing my mother :P

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i bought ABARAT book 2 today... the smaller version of course. i was actually squeeling insde national bookstore in pure delight. i've got a few days to read it, so read it i shall.

oh, and it was a bargain too! 40% off? how much better can this day be?

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tomorrow, we'll be going to my mother-side relatives. yeah! new printer!

-shing

setting things on fire

no, i haven't set my house on fire yet. :D

i guess what i'm saying that inspite of all the things that has been happening in my life, i still want to do a lot. i still want to move, write, sing, shout, talk. i'm not done being hyper, and more so doing school work...

or maybe this is all the effect of sleeping at one in the morning... damn cl project. but yes, i still love you and your green-staining paint covered body.

i've just realized that painting styro with poster paint will eventually stain your hands, even if it's already dried and all that. hahaha. how would people play my gameboard if they knew their hands would eventually turn green?

i'm finally decided. my course in college would be something related to child psychology. it's what i want, and my parents agree. i think it'll help in understanding the world better. no, i'm not kidding. i want to know every bit of emotion people feel. it's not like abnormal, but think about it. i'm from a middle-class family, going to an exclusive school and all that shit, and i don't know the world. what do the poor feel like? what do the rich feel like? what do aliens think about us?

i'm curios! XD it'll kill me one day~ hehehe

next thing to do : finish 'stolen quills and ink bottles'

it's a story that i'm trying to do. no, i'm not doing spoilers. hehehe. it's a story that i'll keep once it's finished. hehehehe. it's a secret :P

i am no officially the vice-chair of our littel brigade... the gift brigade! gift meaning Going Insane From Torture. kitty's chairman, shaniqua's secretary, valerie's treasurer (since she loves money) and chie's PRO. hehehe. and our first project? a redo of ramayana.

yes, we've decided to make our own version of ramayana. can we say we got carried away with our report? yes. we LOVED our report. it's a sophomore memory that i'll keep forever. XD like what shaniqua said : ramayana reporting (for her) was a life-changing experience.

hahaha. she's saying that cause we just pulled it off XD

what else? oh! tomorrow's going to be the day i confess. O_____O wishing myself lots of luck and courage for tomorrow then... *sigh* i'm not giving up. not yet, really. i'm determined to see the end of this!

new bedroom dillemas

this is a self admit : i can't sleep with anyone shring the same bed... but i can't sleep knowing there's no one inside the room.

this is a new fact i've learned about myself. recently, i've just finished furnishing my new room (with all the little tidbits and pastel colored things i could find inside the house... ooohh... and colorful stick-ons too) and it's just been 2 days, but insomnia's starting to kick in. ever knew the feeling of slipping into dreamland and waking up again in a few minutes cause you think someone's looming over you?

yeah~ it's night and it's bad.

my mom, on the other hand, really believes that it's just my overactive imagination working. oh yeah, add the creepy factor my curtains give (though they have a cute design). i guess it's something i have to get used to, since i'll be residing in it for a few more weeks.

today's not bad at all, after the initial shock our journ teacher gave us. i mean, it's not his fault: the subject he teaches barely applies to our lives really. can't blame him or loving it too much to teach it. he has his reasons, and i'm not about to question it. campus journalism for me is JUST a subject, nothing more.

another fact : i'm not quite attached to my new phone, and it's not expected. after few hours of holding it, cooing over it, i guess not having a phone for a few years actually remains in me. i don't even think about it half the time... well, i kinda did yesterday but i don't right now.

what else? looking for a layouting program IS a bit hard, especially when you KNOW that adobe pagemaker won't hold on forever. it's a 30 day trial, and i don't think it's enough. unless i actually sit my butt off in front of the computer for hours and never leave it. i think i need to tell abbie about this.

well, i CAN stand adobe photoshop... maybe i can actually make it!

one more fact : i suck at table tennis... it's true

-shing

blog dormant, be gone

i guess i haven't been really updating on blogger a lot, since i write on my DA account. i actually want to change that and say i'll use blogger for my ranting and DA for my works. yes, even if no one really does care about what i have to say, i'm still keeping this blog in check every few days, just cause i want to.

today marks the end of my dad's 11 month contract. right now, he MUST be cruising along the clouds and birds, on his way here. we'll pick him up at around 6 XD i just can't wait.

but alongside that, i'm kinda fearing that what i've got planned won't work at all. i know my dad's open, my dad's nice and he loves me a lot but up to what extent is his tolerance? what extent is his understanding? it's all up to guesses.

so far, i've gone through HALF of what MIGHT happen; the worst case scenarios playing over and over in my head. i don't really mind if he starts yelling, or getting mad. i'm playing it cool. that's what i've decided. there's no way i'll lose in this battle. we'll write treaties with fair judgement to end it, if it ever did start.

i'm not saying i've lost a lot in my life. no, i haven't lost anything. i don't want to start losing anything right now.

i don't want to lose love, found, lost, and then found again.

my mom just called. hehehehe. she troubles about my health. i find a lot of things wrong with me. the way my eyes go puffy and shitty when i'm sick, the weird way my colds affect my whole performance throughout the day... i don't like getting sick, and now she thinks i'm about to get glaucoma (?) cause i strain my eyes way too much.

i actually remember her telling me i might go crazy cause of thinking way too much at night.

maybe she's right about a few things, but being health consciuos isn't my thing. if it were, i wouldn't be fat now, right?

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'swaying daffodils' is now my official piece for this year. hopefully, everything goes smoothly. i dunno why my mom insists on it, but i guess she likes it a lot and she misses tita amy a lot too. it was my tita's piece before, and tita bess's too. and now, it's mine, so i guess i have to work extra hard to read the notes XD

-shing