poems from my exam: English III -- sonnet

Love Is Not All
Edna St. Vincent Millay

Love is not all: It is not meat nor drink
Nor slumber nor a roof against the rain,
Nor yet a floating spar to men that sink
and rise and sink and rise and sink again.
Love cannot fill the thickened lung with breath
Nor clean the blood, nor set the fractured bone;
Yet many a man is making friends with death
even as I speak, for lack of love alone.
It well may be that in a difficult hour,
pinned down by need and moaning for release
or nagged by want past resolution's power,
I might be driven to sell your love for peace,
Or trade the memory of this night for food.
It may well be. I do not think I would.

the fear of losing someone...

While I was taking a nap this afternoon, I had this horrible nightmare. I REALLY horrible nightmare, which in truth, I thought was already reality.

When you really love someone, you wouldn’t let go of that person right? You’d patiently wait things out, taking very VERY small steps to make one dream a reality…

Dude, I thought I was going to LOSE you. I was going to lose you, nearly, because in my dream, my parent’s wouldn’t accept you. I don’t want that to be the case. When the time comes, I want them to love you, just as I love your mom and your brother and your dad (partly, cause I never really got to talk to him… right? :D)

Maybe this is the right time to say that I seriously and honestly want us to end up together. I’m not kidding. Sometimes, I just stare out the window and wish time would go by a bit faster. By the time you come back, I’ll be nearly done with college and you’d have a stable job and everything else…

Yeah, I know… it’s silly for me to wish things like that. I mean, I’m still what? 16? I know, it’s so naïve… but I just can’t help it, you know…

I’ll always be yours: now and forever.

-shing

half day memories

Affirmation by Savage Garden

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

(love you sir. bunag! you're the BEST world history teacher EVER!!! will miss you!)

looking for blue paper

just 2 days before the exam itself and i can honestly say i haven't studied anything.

no, i'm not about to admit that i'm some genius. yes, i have my doubts. i actually feel like i won't pass the exams this quarter. i don't know why. maybe because the thought that it's the last quarter is enough an excuse for me not to study at all. lame excuse, don't you think?

right now, i guess i'm taking it easy. i just finished my english portfolio and now looking for some blue paper to cover the folder with. i want my portfolio to come back, honestly. i want everything back with me before the school year ends. deep inside, i KNOW ms. aligada would pull one of my works... hopefully, that wouldn't happen. i WISH she has loads of other students who did a nicer job than i did when it came to the other requirments.

i guess this is the right time to say that i love III-7 and that i'll miss junior year A LOT. this year was a blast! i can't explain it properly, but i guess this year was just incredelously fun~ fun people, fun teachers, fun stuff, fun activities... let's just cross out the few unpleasant memories, shall we?

i admit, there WERE times when i didn't get my classmates at all. i admit (as well) that those were the times when i was being narrow minded. i guess this year made me realize that there's more to people than what others tell you who they are.

working with III-7 must be the greatest thing that ever happened in my whole entire school life. yes, i'm not going to deny it: you guys are the BEST.

-shing

rebirth of my long dead PC... err... internet

right now, i'm at the house, thanking the gods for finally giving me back my precious precious internet. who would've thought it would take like a year or so before they gave it back to me? hahaha

so first thing's first, i would want to acknowledge kuya mark for being a great help. without him, i would still be stuck going to the clinic back and forth :D (all i really need now is another printer to complete this! hahaha)

but that doesn't mean though that this PC's as fast as hell. on the contrary, i find it really slow. still the same old ISP, really. i think i've grown accustomed to my mom's PC's fastness. now i'm kinda struggling with the fact that it even can't load a decent page under 2 minutes. yes, that's how said life is, but this is fine. i can get used to this. anyway, i DID promise my mom i'd use this only at night... AND for dire purposes only. she just gave me time tonight cause yuh... who wouldn't be excited to use this? hahahaha

for other matters, it's exams week and here i am, being a lazy bitch, just going through past notes. i don't know... i don't feel like studying. i know it sounds bad but right now, just for this day, i felt like i couldn't care less at all O____O. i know, it's so not me but i just felt like it! hopefully, i'll get seriuos tomorrow, cause a part of me's scared shitless with what i'm doing right now.

-shing