it's been raining for the past few days and to match it, i've been sleeping a lot as well. i don't know, it's just my habit to sleep when it's raining. it's like turning on the AC and forgetting all your worries without the hassle of electric bills in the end.
for around 4 days now, i've been teaching my brother english, reading, spelling, math and comprehensive reading all out of the big book my mom dug out. plus a chapter a day from 'James and the Giant Peach' by Roald Dahl. being a teacher is no big feat, and in the end i'm left in a bad state wherein i have a scratch here or a scrape there and a pink spot on my hand. yes, my brother and i don't really get along well when it comes to academics. i don't get how he just couldn't see the answer when it's right infront of him. especially with comprehension. today was the worst and we ended up crying and shouting at each other through a closed door. i hate it when people are so slow into catching up.
but no worries! we made up in the end (over sardines and hotdog and rice at lunch) and here i am now writing what happened. my brother might be a pain but he gets points for being sweet.
so! for now, i've earned around 200 for the 31st! yeah! let's all count until i get to 1k!
(ish now having a bad case of colds... damn)
-shing
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Monday, May 12, 2008
for real now...
since last night, i haven't really been feeling well... emotionally, so to say. it's true when friends say i take a lot of things seriuosly. i know i shouldn't stress myself over this. i could actually hear kate screaming 'don't think about it! sheesh!' inside my head... my problem, my problem, yeah, yeah. i got that. like my mom says, it's officially my habit now. a habit is hard to stop. i've had a lot of habits and not one of them has left me. i still sleep with the lights open, i still go out with a bag (even if it's just my mom's clinic), i brush my teeth hoping that it'll turn whiter every night... weird habits :D
me and chie were planning to go to the con on the 31st :D i think this is the poster http://mangaholix.deviantart.com/art/M3con08-Poster-ver1-82129704 yeah... i just hope chie can come. i'm going to work so hard for at least a thousand bucks... just for that day. MRT road trip people! wanna join me? ahahaha~
we got to talking about past stuffs and all that. of course, i'll keep everything we've talked about confidential and a secret. it hurts to remember sad pasts ya know? but we did get to talking and i noticed a few more points about my bestfriend. then about that... it's always hard to make decisions and i can't possibly just toss a coin and depend on it for an answer. no, things had to be thought of more thoroughly. i've finally reached a decision last night (after screaming on my pillow). i'll get things done and over.
right now, i'm happily combing my hands to my newly cut hair. it looks different (of course) and it feels different too. it feels like a large burden just suddenlt dissapeared. i'm not saying i didn't love my old hair. i did, but it was totally heavy. now it's just about chin level right now and light. ahahaha. i may not look like the way i did before, but at least it looks fine. crazy but cute, as my cousin mai says.
here i am, left to plan and to finish off everything...
oh! and that piano concert... i'm about to panic! i mean, a guest! ahahaha~ the honor and fear of that word...
it's raining often now and i hope things'll go well... better actually.
-shing
me and chie were planning to go to the con on the 31st :D i think this is the poster http://mangaholix.deviantart.com/art/M3con08-Poster-ver1-82129704 yeah... i just hope chie can come. i'm going to work so hard for at least a thousand bucks... just for that day. MRT road trip people! wanna join me? ahahaha~
we got to talking about past stuffs and all that. of course, i'll keep everything we've talked about confidential and a secret. it hurts to remember sad pasts ya know? but we did get to talking and i noticed a few more points about my bestfriend. then about that... it's always hard to make decisions and i can't possibly just toss a coin and depend on it for an answer. no, things had to be thought of more thoroughly. i've finally reached a decision last night (after screaming on my pillow). i'll get things done and over.
right now, i'm happily combing my hands to my newly cut hair. it looks different (of course) and it feels different too. it feels like a large burden just suddenlt dissapeared. i'm not saying i didn't love my old hair. i did, but it was totally heavy. now it's just about chin level right now and light. ahahaha. i may not look like the way i did before, but at least it looks fine. crazy but cute, as my cousin mai says.
here i am, left to plan and to finish off everything...
oh! and that piano concert... i'm about to panic! i mean, a guest! ahahaha~ the honor and fear of that word...
it's raining often now and i hope things'll go well... better actually.
-shing
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
reinvention
(I can’t hear myself think cause of my brother’s screaming… O_O)
all I know is that the first ending theme of bokura ga ita is playing in my mind… oh wait, he stopped nagging me HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. But seriously, aishiteru by mi is starting to play again and again. I dunno. It’s fun to listen to it :P
the way I live… I’m actually thinking of reinventing myself, for the better. How many times have I thought about this? About a million times I guess. I can’t think of one thing that’ll hold me back, but I can’t just seem to start. The ‘after 6 diet’ was a failure on me (thanks to my parents who insisted on eating dinner) and cleaning out my room seems a hard task in the middle of summer. I mean, I DO want to clean out my room but I’ll have to suffer a heat stroke or something. Yeah… So you could now imagine what a potato couch I’ve turned out to be >< (fat and useless much? Yeah~) my room’ filled with piles and piles of paper and books! Hahahahaha. I even have those from last year mixed with the new ones :P hahahaha
what else? I’m trying to get my mom to go with me for a haircut. Tarantella by A. Pieczonka is a dream to play but I’ll still get it. Twinkle is, by far, the best and adorable lopsided little creature I’ve ever invented. I’m still working on the design for my dress… a lot of things to do >< oh, and cover uncovered books! :P I still have about 5 yet to cover but I’m still not moving.
Maybe the only thing decent I’ve done this past summer is go to SEP. oh and study for a bit. Yeah… when I tell people I’m studying, they’re like ‘what for? Why?’ O_O okay. Cause I WANT to. I want to prove that I’m not some stupid little brat, as some people picture me to be. Oh yeah sure, I can be a brat but that’s not totally me. Plus, I really wanna try hard this year. The aim? About a grade of 90, just to be sure. Now, it’s not enough that I pass. It was fine before but not now.
-shing
all I know is that the first ending theme of bokura ga ita is playing in my mind… oh wait, he stopped nagging me HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA. But seriously, aishiteru by mi is starting to play again and again. I dunno. It’s fun to listen to it :P
the way I live… I’m actually thinking of reinventing myself, for the better. How many times have I thought about this? About a million times I guess. I can’t think of one thing that’ll hold me back, but I can’t just seem to start. The ‘after 6 diet’ was a failure on me (thanks to my parents who insisted on eating dinner) and cleaning out my room seems a hard task in the middle of summer. I mean, I DO want to clean out my room but I’ll have to suffer a heat stroke or something. Yeah… So you could now imagine what a potato couch I’ve turned out to be >< (fat and useless much? Yeah~) my room’ filled with piles and piles of paper and books! Hahahahaha. I even have those from last year mixed with the new ones :P hahahaha
what else? I’m trying to get my mom to go with me for a haircut. Tarantella by A. Pieczonka is a dream to play but I’ll still get it. Twinkle is, by far, the best and adorable lopsided little creature I’ve ever invented. I’m still working on the design for my dress… a lot of things to do >< oh, and cover uncovered books! :P I still have about 5 yet to cover but I’m still not moving.
Maybe the only thing decent I’ve done this past summer is go to SEP. oh and study for a bit. Yeah… when I tell people I’m studying, they’re like ‘what for? Why?’ O_O okay. Cause I WANT to. I want to prove that I’m not some stupid little brat, as some people picture me to be. Oh yeah sure, I can be a brat but that’s not totally me. Plus, I really wanna try hard this year. The aim? About a grade of 90, just to be sure. Now, it’s not enough that I pass. It was fine before but not now.
-shing
Monday, May 5, 2008
thoughts on random
For a few nights now, I’ve been reading a book given to me by my cousin (thanks ate!) to pass the time. ‘Bagets’ is a compilation of short stories for young adults (an anthology, as it says on the cover) and I kind of realized that most of the stories written in English were about the prom. Yes, the prom. Now it had me thinking: what would I be when that time came?
First of all: the dress. It’s true that I’m not into the fashion-makeup-trend crap but I seriously love imagining styles of dresses. I can go from Victorian to modern and though they may REALLY come out as an amateur’s design, it doesn’t matter: I know my knowledge of it is yet too small to have a masterpiece-like output. So okay, for myself, I decided to go against the usual straight gowns… I remembered the time I had to wear one and seriously, my legs looked like it would burst the seams on the sides. Plus, walking in it with high heels had me limping and hopping most of the time. The solution? My dress would have to be a full petticoat-like dress. The style where in it’s full waist down. Plus it’ll hide the flabs, ne? >< (if I still had them by that time)
Next, the upper design: a halter. A tube top seems outdated and a spaghetti looks like common, so why not go for something people don’t usually do? And not JUST the simple halter-style where in it’s a string holding it altogether: I want it to be a PART of the dress itself. Like it’s a ruler’s width or something… or maybe more!
Actually, I sketched it last night (should be able to post it by now) and by my standards, it looks great. My mom just doesn’t agree with the ruffles on the halter itself… I should ask her for a reason.
(note: I got it that to hire someone to sew, it would cost you around 2000 for the plain gown and 5000 for the petticoat looking thing… damn… is this an early sign that I’ won’t be eating until it gets done?)
oh, and I’m not going for fashion designing… I’ve got no originality :P
Yesterday, I swear people hid my pants to make me wear shorts to the mall. I mean, hello!!! Where were my pants?!? Then they said they couldn’t find them and I had to go out in denim shorts. After 2 effing years, I had to do it again T_____T Did I say going out in shorts feels so degrading? Yes it does. It feels like I’m someone cheap. It feels like I’m out seducing eyes of millions of people to come and get me. I’m NOT like that. My dad defends that I’ve got the body, so why not show it? Here’s my anser: cause I don’t like showing. Sure, I’ll show my talents, I’ll show my stupidity in math but skin? I know it’s JUST shorts for some people but it’s not like they’ve got log-like legs and a weird dark patch (that’s built by the illusion of tiny scars) on the right knee… Let’s face it, I was built for pants. Nothing else.
Oh, but as much as I hate my legs, I absolutely love my feet. I’m not trying to sound vain and proud, but in every shoe, sandal, flats and high heels I come across, I find that they look good in it. It’s like I can wear any footwear I desire! >< hahahaha. The only thing I feel I can’t do is get a pedicure every month. (I’ve got no money :P) and buy every shoe I like (still no money).
Bokura Ga Ita… My god… I finally have it! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! I personally think it’s worth buying it even if it cost me 210… it was fucking 70 per CD ya know! I got it from Hobby Point (they have a lot of it I tell you) cause I got tired of waiting for 2rats to have some stock of it. Seriously… against 50 and 70, I couldn’t care anymore about the 20 difference. As long as I got it, I’m happy. :D So far, it’s amusing me to no end and even if the art’s on the simple side, the plot’s better than any sappy love anime I’ve ever watched. I mean, there are really anime shows that only focus on the love part but Bokura Ga Ita, so far, has the most uncorniest and unbitchiest plot I’ve ever seen. It’s so innocent ><
There. Update enough
-shing
First of all: the dress. It’s true that I’m not into the fashion-makeup-trend crap but I seriously love imagining styles of dresses. I can go from Victorian to modern and though they may REALLY come out as an amateur’s design, it doesn’t matter: I know my knowledge of it is yet too small to have a masterpiece-like output. So okay, for myself, I decided to go against the usual straight gowns… I remembered the time I had to wear one and seriously, my legs looked like it would burst the seams on the sides. Plus, walking in it with high heels had me limping and hopping most of the time. The solution? My dress would have to be a full petticoat-like dress. The style where in it’s full waist down. Plus it’ll hide the flabs, ne? >< (if I still had them by that time)
Next, the upper design: a halter. A tube top seems outdated and a spaghetti looks like common, so why not go for something people don’t usually do? And not JUST the simple halter-style where in it’s a string holding it altogether: I want it to be a PART of the dress itself. Like it’s a ruler’s width or something… or maybe more!
Actually, I sketched it last night (should be able to post it by now) and by my standards, it looks great. My mom just doesn’t agree with the ruffles on the halter itself… I should ask her for a reason.
(note: I got it that to hire someone to sew, it would cost you around 2000 for the plain gown and 5000 for the petticoat looking thing… damn… is this an early sign that I’ won’t be eating until it gets done?)
oh, and I’m not going for fashion designing… I’ve got no originality :P
Yesterday, I swear people hid my pants to make me wear shorts to the mall. I mean, hello!!! Where were my pants?!? Then they said they couldn’t find them and I had to go out in denim shorts. After 2 effing years, I had to do it again T_____T Did I say going out in shorts feels so degrading? Yes it does. It feels like I’m someone cheap. It feels like I’m out seducing eyes of millions of people to come and get me. I’m NOT like that. My dad defends that I’ve got the body, so why not show it? Here’s my anser: cause I don’t like showing. Sure, I’ll show my talents, I’ll show my stupidity in math but skin? I know it’s JUST shorts for some people but it’s not like they’ve got log-like legs and a weird dark patch (that’s built by the illusion of tiny scars) on the right knee… Let’s face it, I was built for pants. Nothing else.
Oh, but as much as I hate my legs, I absolutely love my feet. I’m not trying to sound vain and proud, but in every shoe, sandal, flats and high heels I come across, I find that they look good in it. It’s like I can wear any footwear I desire! >< hahahaha. The only thing I feel I can’t do is get a pedicure every month. (I’ve got no money :P) and buy every shoe I like (still no money).
Bokura Ga Ita… My god… I finally have it! HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! I personally think it’s worth buying it even if it cost me 210… it was fucking 70 per CD ya know! I got it from Hobby Point (they have a lot of it I tell you) cause I got tired of waiting for 2rats to have some stock of it. Seriously… against 50 and 70, I couldn’t care anymore about the 20 difference. As long as I got it, I’m happy. :D So far, it’s amusing me to no end and even if the art’s on the simple side, the plot’s better than any sappy love anime I’ve ever watched. I mean, there are really anime shows that only focus on the love part but Bokura Ga Ita, so far, has the most uncorniest and unbitchiest plot I’ve ever seen. It’s so innocent ><
There. Update enough
-shing
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