the things in life...

for now, school's been lying low lately. we don't have that much HW in our hands, and now i still have time to catch up with a few things like checking my e-mail, chatting, going to long lost forgotten sites... those kinds of things. i really miss the feel of it. lol

a little while ago, sir. velarde said something about going to the production thing of the inquirer. i've always been a fan of theirs, well, since i started reading the comics page of the lifestyle section, and until now i like it. now we're supposed to go on friday, but yesss.... my schedulae has to take that privelage away with it... i mean, hello. i just can't give up on a subject only once a week to be met... a double period at that! i'm torn on what to do... hell, i can't even think of anything to do right now except try and forget about the hope in me that i'd be seeing one of the country's most top newspaper companies... it sucks to know you've come this far yet you can't lift your finger to touch it.

anyway, moving on, things are a bit stale as well. a load of things are happening between us all. faye's not eating well, kate's being a bitch, ichie's being so hyper... and me? i'm beiong hyper as well. or maybe it's the mask i'm wearing that's hyper.

i can't see the difference in it.

i've finally learned to accept that if i lose all my files that are stored in the other PC, i'd have to live with it. those were all my hard worked files btw, so maybe i'd have to cry a lot, but then there's no turning back. i think i won't have anything anymore by the time the PC's been rebooted and all. it sucks... a lot...

but starting from scratch can be good too XD

i've read sopmewhere that a writer writes the idea, lets it rest for a long time, picks it up again and edits them. i know i won't have anything to pick up anymore, but those materials were written from my heart. i KNOW i'll be able to write them. of course, in a much more better way and in a more suitable manner than what i've used before.

i'm trying not to lose my temper with my bro again. i mean, it gets hard when he's being so irritating and you're hungry and tired. there's something about that that actually makes you snap deep inside and all you can do is scream your head off at the nearest person beside you. it's a habit i have to stop, but then bad habits DO die hard. the hell with it.

there's something bothering me though... i just cab't seem to find any meaning to what's happening around me right now. it's like i feel empty even though there are a lot of things out there that's just TRYING to fill this gaping hole up. BUT to no avail. oh well.

sir john was reported to be seen in school a few days ago. hmm... i wonder if it were true... man... if it were, i would've knocked and asked him forsaken then... lol

-shing