rainy days

for the whole day, i've been waiting for it to rain. no, i'm not going out like some lunatic and dance under a thundering dark sky like some kids here in my place do. no, i don't do that anymore. i just want it to rain cause just looking at it through my window here makes me feel calm. i know a lot of people who do that as well. we're all the same i guess; trying to forget a memory.

the rain also signifies the approaching school days. those gloomy school days spent walking under umbrellas for the first few days. for that alone, i was forced to buy an umbrella. actatually, it's a bit cool too, cause one push of the button, the umbrella automatically springs up and tadah! no need to push the stick. another press of the button and it goes back to it's original folded state. all you really have to do is roll it and put it back to it's small plastic case. i just hope no one steals it like the last time.

last night, i couldn't really get any sleep at all. i kept on tossing and turning, throwing the blanket on the wall, and probably waking up my cousin in the process. maybe it's stress. maybe it's thoughts. maybe it's the nagging feelings i have hidden deep inside that suddenly came back to life just to haunt me. or probably all three. i just hope i'll get some sleep tonight, since i'm tired and i badly need it.

there are some matters i KNOW i have to settle soon:

1. my stolen mp3
2. some debt
3. my brother
4. my mother
5. left over forsaken stuff
6. and my love life.

they're all mixed up somehow up in my mind, and i know school work would soon be added into the list. hopefully everyhing goes well with life.

-lisha